| Well, Ladies and Gentleman... I was told I do not post anymore, so I figured I would just to keep you all updated on my exciting life... to be honest nothing to exciting is going on. Actually, I am really bummed at the moment... things I never thought would happen have happened... and yet once again I am left alone. And as usual I recieve that title of "my best girl friend that I go to advice for" some of you may know whom I am speaking of... others may not. To be honest this situation has been going on for years... and I guess I have to come to terms that it will always be a situation never a relationship. I guess all I can do is be happy. Because I know he would be happy for me. But at the moment I have nothing for him to be happy for me about. I am sure he was scared to tell me, because he would not know what my reaction would be... and I have decided to just keep the emotion inside... the feelings I had were years ago, and don't need to be shown again. I feel like I am Julia Roberts from My Best Friends Wedding... actually with him, I will always be Julia Roberts from My Best Friends Wedding... gosh, the day I get that phone call about a wedding I will die. You know I care about him a lot, and I feel like me saying he is one of my best friends is a one way feeling. I could be wrong, well he tells me I am wrong... but you know he has a really funny way of showing it. I promised myself that I would never do this to myself again with him... and here I am doing it. So to follow are depressing quotes... enjoy!
"It's time to let you go, it's time to say goodbye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There's been so many changes I was so confussed... I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But its so hard to let you go now, all that could have been. I'll always have the memories, she'll always have you."
"It's better this way, I say. Haven't seen this place before. With everything we say and do, hurts us all a little more...I'm pulled down by the undertow, I never thought i could feel so low. And all in darkness I feel like letting go. If all of the strength, all of the courage, come and lift me from this place, I know I could love you much better than this..."
"You may feel alone when you're falling asleep. And every time tears roll down your cheeks. But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet. And Someday you will be loved."
"I've been watching your world from afar, I've been trying to be where you are, and I've been secretly falling apart. To me your strange and your beautiful, you'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see. You turn every head but you don't see me.
DUDE, I am such a loser.. thats all I got folks! Leave me love.. and tell me what an idiot I am for getting upset over this...
~ME |
